Coping with stress

So I am moving in about a month. It is supposed to a good thing. The house of my dreams! My spouse and I have been up to our necks in boxes. You see we offered on a short sale in June and everything sounded like it was going to go smoothly and quickly, but that changed and after three months we decided to start looking for a different house. We found one in a couple of weeks and made an offer. They accepted and everything is rolling. The only thing is they want a longer escrow than we want. We really don't have a choice. It is this or no house, but now I have been living in boxes for over four months. I feel like I am going crazy! I thought I could handle the stress of it all at first. I even told my psychiatrist I wasn't ready to adjust or add any new medications about a month ago. Well last week I went back for another appointment and asked that we do something. I have low energy, am depressed, frequently crying, getting angry, and yelling.

I think I was in denial. Let me be honest here, I hate being bipolar. I wish I was normal and I wanted to think I could be normal like a normal person in a stressful situation like this. I guess I just had to come to grips with the fact that I am not normal and am bipolar. I had to swallow my pride and decide if I wanted to feel better or wallow in my own misery. My meds have now been adjusted and I am feeling better, but still not at 100%. I am going to give it a few more weeks before I decide whether or not to ask for more changes to my medications.

So at the end of the day here are my medications:

• 1800 mg of Lithium ER
• 900 mg of Neurontin *this used to be 600 mg and was adjusted
• 10 mg of Ambien
• 1 mg of Klonopin
• 37.5 mg Effexor ER *this used to be 37.5 mg and was adjusted

I also take Omega 3 supplements (recent studies have shown it helps manage bipolar mood swings) Flaxseed Oil Supplements and a Daily Multi Vitamin religiously.

I hope you all are feel well!

-Forever Bipolar